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From Within

I will never forget the day my mom took me to buy “real” makeup for the very first time. I went to the department store with her with a fresh face and eager eyes, anxiously awaiting my moment. The lady behind the makeup counter sat me down in a leather-cushioned, metal bar stool, and she began to work her magic on me. With each stroke of the eye shadow brush and coat of dark brown mascara, I could feel myself transforming. When she finished, she showed me my reflection. I. Was. Beautiful. I was twelve and in 7th grade. A lot of other girls (most of the other girls) already wore makeup, so I was late to the party. It didn’t matter though- it was my time. Maybe now, that blue-eyed boy I had a crush on since I was in the 4th grade would finally ask me out. I’d be invited to more parties with the “cool group” that I only hung out with during athletics and basketball, and my circle of friends would expand drastically. Yes, now that I wore makeup, everything was about to change. Except, it didn’t. I was still awkward and clumsy, embarrassed by my two gawky front teeth, and discouraged by my extremely flat chest. My confidence level was non-existent, and I lived my life vicariously through Degrassi characters, hoping some day for a life just like theirs. Thankfully, my social skills grew a little bit as time went on, […]

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Disconnect Week

I’m doing it. I’m finally disconnecting from social media. It rules my world, and it rules our culture. Today is the first day, and I started with Facebook. I’m experiencing “withdrawals”, and I keep trying to check Facebook on my phone, only to find that I deleted the app (since I have no self control otherwise.) If you aren’t addicted to social media, this post isn’t for you. If you can take it or leave it, leave it. Leave this post. My reasoning behind this experiment is simple. I’m just too addicted to its convenience. I use social media for self validation, to keep in touch with friends, and to see what other people are up to. I use to to find out half-truths about the world around me, rather than using my brain to research current events myself. I use it on my phone to avoid small talk, to “tune out”, and to get away from an awkward situation. Without it, I wouldn’t know what is up with the people I went to school with or majority of my family. The beauty of social media is that it allows us to maintain relationships (with a simple click of a thumb or a small comment) with people whom otherwise, we never would have remained in contact. In some aspects, it’s really good. There are some people that I wouldn’t get the opportunity to talk with ever due to distance or […]

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Key Points

Hello all! It’s been a busy few weeks for me. Some key points of my week include learning about my trust with others, being published on HuffPost, adapting as a broke college kid at 25, green tea lattes, vacationing from social media (kind of), and fear. On Trust– I’m starting to see this week how very little I trust in others. Even though I’m an open book, believing that I can trust someone entirely is a really hard concept for me. Sure, I can share a lot with the world, (hello, […]

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A Sea Of Uncertainty

I’m going to write, and I’m going to write freely. I’m freaking out about a situation going on in my life right now. I was clearly called in a certain direction. I knew that direction was the right choice, and I knew that it was something I needed to pursue. I sit here, writing this, hands shaking with nerves, stomach doing an olympic tumbling routine. I’m unsteady and unsure with how this is going to go. I don’t know what is going to happen next. I am fearful that everything is about to change. I’m scared of leaving my comfort zone. I’m terrified. Tears are welling up in my eyes as I think about what could happen. My thoughts tend to hop on the autobahn at the worst timing. Fear consumes me like a thick fog hovering the freeway. The cars can’t push through it, they can’t see five feet in front of them, but they think they know what is miles ahead. But do they? Do I? I don’t want to step away from my comfort zone because I’m good at it, I fit well with it, I enjoy it, and I like the people that are in it with me. I finally found a spot in which I’m content. Contentment is my biggest foe. Contentment is what is keeping me from everything this world has to offer me. In my heart, I know I’m not at the place […]

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Blissfully Erin

I wanted to take a break from my deep, soul-telling posts and do something a little different. I want to introduce you to BlissfullyErin.com I started this blog a few months ago as a way to connect to the Vegan blog world. If you know me, you probably know I’m not vegan anymore. If you want to know more about my decision, email me. The name, Blissfully Erin, came from my original blog, Blissful Veggie. I didn’t feel it was right to have “Veggie” in my name anymore. I’ll let you in on […]

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